the name of my blog is "thoughts" and it hit me that i need to start every blog with a thought.
so here we go.
thought: my job is preparing me for a lot more than i realize.
a few weeks ago i had heard the story of the woman at the well 3 times in 3 days. i couldn't figure out why. i knew that there had to be a reason, but for the life of me i could not figure it out. a week earlier, as i was thinking about my job and trying to define what i actually do, i came up with this: i am here to serve. i am here to serve not only the children but also the volunteers who make Sunday mornings possible. i am a servant.
later on in the week (where i heard that story 3 times) i was reading the book for small group and the author was talking about preparing yourself for marriage. she said that the wife was to be the servant to the husband.
it was then and there that the light came on. i was sitting in the middle of the music building at school. i put the book down and put the pieces together. the woman at the well was a servant. she did not make a big deal out of it, she simply did what she was asked. i knew that the Lord was trying to tell me that although i serve all the time that it was time for me to take a gut check.
so i have been.
there has always been a joke that i can't be out of the lime light and that everything is all about me. as much as i joke about it and as often as i do something outrageous to entertain people, i really am not a fan of being in the spotlight all the time. i love to direct and be back stage....don't get me wrong, i do love to act. but i know that i am better behind the stage. and if you have been around me for an extend period of time, you may find that hard to believe.
i have also always said that i don't want to get married and that i am super independent. well, the Independence thing is still true. however, through this whole learning to serve and humble yourself thing i am learning how to balance my independence with other stuff. it sucks too because i would much rather do stuff myself. so in learning how to serve the people who volunteer me, i am learning how to rely on them and to get them what they need to do their job better. in the long run things are going to go better on a Sunday morning if lots of people are working instead of me doing the entire thing.
i am also learning how to be a parent. yes, odd one i know but when you work with kids you pick up a few things. on a regular Sunday, i have 250-300 kids. i love every single one of them. and because i love them and because there are always things i can do to make things better for them, i have to sometimes think like a parent. which is kind of scary but then again it is pretty natural too. that's all i have to say on this one.
yes, my job is more than a job. it is more that some place i work...my job is right where i'm supposed to be. i am learning so much there. the people i work with are amazing. the things i am learning while there are amazing.
so...wait, what is my thought for the day....(april scrolls up to read thought of the day).....oh yeah, job preparing me for more than i realize.
who would have thought that 6 months ago i would know what i know now. definitely not me.
