in my last post, i mentioned that life was taking over...well it did. a few days after that post, something happened to me that i didn't see coming. for a while, i let it take me over. i let life go on without me. i tired to get back on track.
things have slowed down since then. yet, i'm still busy as ever...but at least i'm living again. new experiences are happening every day. granted, there are still bad days. but i'm learning that those are okay too. it's part of that whole transparent thing i wrote about last time....
speaking of which, being transparent isn't easy. for being someone who has been the "strong" one and never cried in front of people this is a struggle. but i'm welcoming it. letting others know that i'm not superwoman is quite a relief.
also, i've depended on people more this past month that i ever have. yes, i'm learning how to do that too...i can't do everything by myself. but having people ask me how my day is going or noticing that i'm not up to par is really great. guess that is why we have friends to lean on.
it's my friends who are helping me get back on track. they also let me know that it's okay to stay out of the lime light for a while. that it is okay to take as much time as i need to refocus and readjust.
i still know that i'm right where i'm supposed to be...and i also know that no matter what tries to derail me, it can't. life keeps on moving and i'm right there with it.
it's a good feeling knowing i'm not letting life live me.
