i have many e-mail addresses. one of them is an account used for school. on the homepage, we get a quote of the day. this is today's quote:
We live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing. - R. D. Laing
according to wikipedia, he was a Scottish psychiatrist who wrote on mental illness. but you cannot believe everything you see on there.
anyway, am i living for today, tomorrow, or yesterday? or what about this question? am i living for heaven here on earth or am i only looking forward to it once i die and get there?
time goes by fast and each decision made should be looked at as the most important one you make. the outcome could be either good or bad. simple as that right? there is no gray...only black and white. unfortunately it seems like more and more gray is becoming the norm. black and white are running together to make way for a bland color with no definition or brightness. i think it's sad. where have the absolutes gone?
that being said, i am going to work on making all of my decisions count.....
(I am going to also take this time to let you know that the colonoscopy sweepstakes commercial is on again)
....each time i am about to decided on something i am going to take the time to think about who is going to be affected by that decision. will it be good or bad? how will their outcome affect me? another thing to think about is how is it going to affect me? sometimes i make decisions where the outcome will be for the better of the other person and will place me on the out and out. i would hope that people would think like me and do the same thing so that i could benefit. i am learning that the world does not think like i do. harsh reality? nah. quite the learning experience.
i was watching one of my favorite shows last night, my boys. in it, the main character PJ (a girl) made a bet with her best friend Brenden. she was going to make all of his choices for an entire week and at the end they were going to see if his quality of life improved. throughout the show, the choices PJ makes do improve Brenden's life. at the end of the show, however, he runs off with some chick and comes back having almost died or something. he says that making that decision was the best one of his life...or something to that affect.
goes to prove that right choices for some people are only right for them.
so how do i make my choices count? in this world where black and white are turning into gray, it is hard to walk that line between doing what you think is right and sharing your opinions and stuffing your opinions down peoples throats. i am not sure that i can do much to impact the world. but i can start with those around me. i can choose to make decisions that count and to be a woman of integrity. that is my life's goal at 23 years of age.
with that, i am off to make choices that will change me. change my friends. change my work...church...school...city...well, i don't want to get too big but maybe something small that i do will change the world.
and yes, i recently had a birthday. it was nice. i didn't make a big deal out of anything. it was a great day.
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