my 25th birthday is coming up. usually, i am super stoked about birthdays. mainly ones that belong to other people. i've always been real excited about mine too, but this year, for some reason, i'm not. for the first time in a while, i'm not planning a shindig or dinner with friends. to those who know me, it probably seems like i don't care about my birthday this year. i mean, it's 25. that should be a big one. right? it seems like it is one of those magic numbers. you know what the magic numbers are, don't ya?
5, 10, 13, 16, 20, 21, 25, 30, 40, 50
they are the milestone numbers. or so we are taught. i mean, i will now be able to rent a car without any extra fees and i am pretty sure my insurance rate is going to go down...but other than that, what else is there to look forward to? i will be 30 in just 5 years. so i guess that count down can begin?
i suppose you could say i have been in a reflective mood this year. the last few years, i have been discovering who i am as a woman, daughter, friend, sister, employee, and Christian. i've learned a lot and been through a lot. life has given me plenty of experiences to draw from. if i tried, i'm sure i could go back a few years and list some of the major things that happened. i could write out the situation, how i reacted, what the outcome was, and what i learned. some of the things would be significant. in others, you would have to look for the significance.
but going into my 25th year of life, there are some definite things i learned from years 21-24. the one that is on my mind right now is to slow down.
slow down and think about life.
slow down and enjoy the little things.
slow down and live your life. don't let life live you.
slow down and spend time with those you love.
slow down and take time for yourself.
slow down and spend time listening to God.
slow down and just listen to people.
i'm known for having a fast paced life. i love it, i really do. everyone knows i wouldn't trade it for anything. but, i have learned the importance of slowing down and taking care of myself. i cannot run 110% when i'm only 60% ready. slowing down hasn't been an easy thing for me. but, when i force myself to do it, i really actually enjoy it.
a couple of weekends ago, i went to the redbox grabbed 4 dvds. 3 i had intended on seeing in the theater and 1 i did see in the theater only because a friend made me go. for an entire day and night, i was parked in front of the tv. i moved a few times. other than that, i was under a blanket not doing a thing. after i got over the feeling of being completely lazy, it really felt nice. my body needed the down time.
i'm not sure how many of those days i can handle. but i'm sure i can think of other relaxing things to do that are a little more involved. (like, you know, laying on the beach)
i fully intend for the rest of my 20s to be spent living my life to the fullest and doing new and exciting things. however, don't be surprised if you hear i took a day and didn't do a thing. or if i put my phone on silent and disappear from social media for a day or two. i'm not able to be the best i can possibly be if i don't stop to make sure i'm well. or that my heart and head are in the right place.
i need to slow down in order to speed up.
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