opportunities

thought: some times in life we have an opportunity to do something that will change us forever.

...there are times in life when we are given an opportunity to do something that will completely change some portion of our lives forever. there are times when we decided to take that opportunity and there are times when we don't take it, either because we are afraid or there is a circumstance that doesn't allow us to seize the opportunity.

this blog has been sirring in me for a while and i haven't sat down and written it. it has been written and re-written hundreds of times in my mind. each time it began and ended different. every combination of the blog was thought of and i finally decided just to sit down and write. the direction is still unknown.

what is known, however, is that one year ago i was in an interesting situation. some would think that my heart was broken, but it wasn't. i was just angry. what happened was nothing major. but it was the result of seizing an opportunity. i decided to take a risk and step out of my norm. i'm glad i did, don't get me wrong. the anger and tears were a part of the risk. would i do it again? absolutely.

as this was happening someone else had decided to seize an opportunity. in a few days, it will be one year since this person made the decision to seize an opportunity. an opportunity that definitely changed me.

i didn't see this coming and i later found out that it took a long time to make the decision to do it. but when it did, i made a decision to react and again step out of my comfort zone. i jumped into something that i thought i understood. while this decision was something that again, i don't regret, i may have changed some of the things that happened within the situation.

both of those are things that definitely changed who i am. they shaped me and taught me things about others...but mainly i learned more about myself. though it hurt at times and tears were shed, i wouldn't take them back or ask for a "do over".

here recently, another opportunity was "missed" you could say. while on a recent vacation, there were some opportunities for me to meet new people. one of them, i didn't take. i'm chicken. really, i mean it. meeting new people, especially those of the opposite sex terrifies me sometimes. i get nervous, stutter, sweaty palms...it's bad stuff. so there i was, had an opportunity and i didn't take it...but that is totally fine because i did make a new friend...well actually 3 new friends....still though, one of guys was very cool and pretty good looking. i won't deny it! but it wasn't until after the vacation that we really clicked. did we miss an opportunity while on the boat? i don't think so. they ("they" being the experts!) say that to really get to know someone you should watch them interact with their friends. that is totally what happened. so while there wasn't a romantic walk on the beach or on the boat at sunset, there were several hours of laughter and lots of memories made. that is worth way more than being romantic....right?

sure, but i'm a girl and sometimes i can't help to think how neat it would have been to say that i had a romantic walk with a guy....they don't write this stuff in real life. it would have been a fairy tale....

...wait, i've been in those situations before. where the whole thing seemed too good to be true and it was like a fairy tale. or what about the one where it was like something you'd see in a move? no thank you. i would much rather stick with the real life, lets laugh and make jokes, eat pizza and have fun relationship.

so, opportunities....take them. you never know what will happen. the risk may be great and it may hurt for a while. but the pain will go away and something else will come along. or, it could be the best thing to ever happen to you. who knows? just go for it.