if i could turn back time

thought: why do fools fall in love? because they are, well, fools.

now, by the looks of this title and thought, it may seem like i am going to write about why love stinks and how i wish i could go back and re-do some relationships...but i'm not. i am going to talk about the strange things people do when they are in love...or like...or whatever with a person.

for example, i made a fool out of myself today when writing to a friend to ask them a simple question. the question was, however, about someone i am interested in so i was all jittery and could not get my thoughts straight and sounded like a blubbering idiot. why? because i am human and am not calm, cool, and collected all the time.

yes, level headed-ness goes out the door when you have a crush. or when you are in love. but when you have a crush, it almost seems like it is worse. why? let me tell you - 1) you don't know if the person feels the same way back so it's like you are having these reactions for possibly nothing and 2) well, i forgot 2 so let's move on...

if i could turn back time today, i would definitely go back and re-write that e-mail...or maybe not even send it at all. you see, when i am, uh, twitterpated? yes, thats a good word. i get frazzled and can't think...which then leads to being hesitant in decision making and once i make a decision i end up looking like a goof ball...then i realize what i did, try and go back to fix it and look even more stupid...it is a process yes.

i think we should all get one re-do a day...and if we don't use it we can keep it...like roll over minutes. that way when we mess up real bad we can pull ourselves out of it.

but then again, how much fun would that make life? i am sure that one day, i am going to tell my
children and grand-children all of my crazy stories where i wish i had a re-do but looking back at them, i'm glad i didn't because i learned something from them.

what did i learn today? never type when you are twitterpated.

HA. this just came to me...what if said person who makes me this way finds my blog? go figure that would be ironic...then i'd feel even more like a doof....oh well, this is a blog and i chose what goes on it so it would be up to me as far as the content goes.

oh well - i will keep on keepin' on...and will keep with the idea that people do crazy things when they are in love/like/ or see potential in someone. irrational things will be done and [hopefully] grace will be given.

here is to no re-dos and running with you heart not your head.